Weird Stares

Walked out from the office to the toilet.

The moment I stopped and talk to a colleague at the reception, I received weird stares her. I was so conscious. I realized why she was staring at me ...

This was what I was wearing

Look closer at my tummy ...

I was wearing the lumbar support for my back and the top was a wee bit too body hugging. I looked like I hid a book under my shirt!! 0_0

Muhaha. It was as if I wanted to steal a book from the office. Haha.

Sickness & Health

Ah Mah was warded into hospital on Saturday. She has complaints about pangs of heart pain. Doctors have given her a heart scan and she was discharged on Tuesday. Doctors have given her a all clear with regards to the heart pain. They have no idea for the cause of the pain. Maybe like what Mummy said the root of her heart pain is due to her disappointment in her son. Nevertheless, I just want Ah Mah to be healthy and happy. The doctors better be 101% sure that there is nothing worrying about Ah Mah’s heart pain. Otherwise, I’ll definitely curse them until there’s no tomorrow.

This is precisely the reason why I do not want to be thousand miles away from my family. I still remember the pain when my paternal grandmother passed away. She has been gone for quite a few years. The memories of her are fading but the love and care she has for me will always stay. I hope she’s happy together with Ye Ye in heaven. J

I should ...

... wear heels to work everyday.

... try to be a tad bit friendlier.

... try to dress more corporate to work everyday.

... update my resume.

... forward my resume.

... learn to count my blessings and have lesser grants.

... be less temperamental.

I should try to accomplish all the above in 2010. :)

Twenty 0 Ten

Time really flies. It's 02.02.10. January has came and gone in a whiff. *shrugs*

I need to:
1. Move my arse to update my resume and cover letter.
2. Move my arse to search for job.
3. Move my arse to think if I want to stay here or move away (Melbourne or back home).
4. Move my arse to update this dusty space more.
5. Move my arse ... literally.

I really suck at this job. I need to find a new job.

Random Thought

What will my world be like without the ability to see? I cannot imagine what it is going to be like. But I guess it may just simplify my life.

These will be the superficial changes that I can think of:

1. I will not have spent a cent on make up. (For obvious reason, I can’t see to put anything on my face. And I will not have much cared how others see me b’cos I can’t see myself to begin with.)

2. I will not have spent so much money buying all sorts of clothing, dresses, bags and shoes in different styles and colours (As above, I will not have much cared how others see me b’cos I can’t see myself)

3. I will not have spent HEAPS of money on my HK dramas. Maybe I will still b’cos although I can’t watch it I can still hear the conversations. And I guess after all 75% of the time now, I hear TV more than watch it anyway.

3. I will not have so many unrealistic crushes on good looking / hunky / drool worthy guys on the black box!

4. I will not be so fat. (If I can’t see the food I will not be tempted into eating it.)

So much so for being superficial. I guess the strength, independence and determination for those who are visually challenged are amazing. It’s something that I never think I will be able to achieve.

Misery

My eyelids feel so heavy.

My head feel so heavy.

My nose feels ticklish.

But I just had a Boost Energiser juice, which contains the engergiser booster that contains caffine.

So I conclude … …

I AM SICK!

And not that I am sleepy.

But I can’t wait to go home and sleep the whole night through.

How am I going to drive myself back? It’s times like this when I want someone to drive me back and give me comfort.

Oh well … SUCK IT UP AND LIVE IT!!

It’s just life!