Thinking Back

- Only Time Will Tell -

"Congrats" that's the most common word I been hearing for the past few days.

BUT...

Should I really be happy over it? Should I really be over the moon? Should I really be glad that I got it? Should I really be excited?

SHOULD I . . . ?

I really have absoulately NO idea! I am filled with uncertainties myself, in the midst of the "Congratulations" from others who seem more excited than me.Will it actually mean a better future? Will it actually mean a better life? Will it actually mean a happier me?

WILL IT . . . ?

*shrugs*ONLY TIME WILL TELL . . .
Sunday, December 17, 2006-12/17/2006 01:07:00 PM

The above is an entry written almost a year back after I got my PR. Now looking back, here I am in Perth working. I want to conclude that I am NOT MUCH HAPPIER here. Or rather I am more miserable here. I seriously miss my family (Mummy & Daddy) I really do. I guess a working life and student life was different. I thought I would be happier here because of the lifestyle I had in Perth when I was studying. I keep telling Felicia that I wanna go back since I came over. I was really miserable. The last straw was when Jin's parents came and left. Their prescence gave the family feel to the whole house and when they are gone my heart left with them too. My conclusion is I will just hang on for 1 more year (if I can really tahan til then) and try to save as much money as possible and by the next CNY 2010 I will be back in Singapore for good. I cannot give a f about my PR anymore. It doesn't matter if I have it or not when I am in misery.

So that's my conclusion on my future.